gracie’s blog

i have been trying to post something (of significance) or postable (if there is such a word, hehe). there are and still are so many topics in my head but thoughts are racing and my fingers can type only as fast as a snail. in fairness naman, di ako single finger typing like my ati (peace tayo ati! bati pa rin kayo inday kahit nasa alemanya ka na). my thoughts race through my head and vanish as soon as a new thought comes in. memory gap kaya? sundin ko kaya ulit ang payo ng ati ko? bumili na kaya ako ng sustagen premium? hahaha! i’m not that old naman di ba mga prends ko? (sumagot kayo ng maayos or else wala na kayong technical support!) manakot ba naman.

kainis kase ang night shift. i’ve already established a pattern of sleeping, exercising after work tas guluhin ba naman ako ng PM ko the following day para sabihing, “you’re schedule has changed. you’re supposed to be on your holiday today”. syempre nagulantang ako! pero dapat poise pa rin. sabi ko na lang i have a meeting today and i need to do admin tasks pa. lusot! wahaha! pero p@ksyet talaga! sayang! pwede pa sana akong matulog nun! hehe.

so isip ko na lang, i’ll write a poem. got my pen and scratchpad, had some ideas, but i guess the i couldn’t exactly say the things i want to say and with the right words. then biglang nagkabisita ako. syempre takbo ako para magsuot ng mas disenteng damit.  bitin talaga lahat ng gusto kong gawin.

then i planned on going to the gym. i always couldn’t make it for some other reason *waah!* kainis talaga. bat laging bitin?

oo wala pa rin akong maisip. walang maisip na worth it na isulat sa blog ko, hahaha!

still working at this ungodly hour. my mind wanders off to emerald colored waters, sitting on the beach thinking of nothing but the wind touching my whole body. nothing can make you think of vacation more than when you’re working your @ss off. i stare at the server screen changing, refreshing itself as fast as it can while i wish that i am staring at a sunset somewhere in a secluded island by myself, with a bottle of wine in one hand thinking of the mundane aspects of life. no worries, no deadlines, so project managers that you have to impress, no outages, no conscious time management (lest you find yourself working beyond the estimated outage time), no audits, no cases, no overtime. *sigh* wished life is that simple.

probably after this cloning activity, and extended working hours, would earn me some slack over my PM’s micromanaging habits. please!

… i can see the sunrise… i’m dreaming… ay hindi pala. dahil pasikat na ang araw sa labas (oh yes dear, the sun rises at around 4am in northern china). sabagay, this sunrise is better than not seeing any sunrise at all…

goodmorning sunshine!

i’m feeling exceptionally perky today. probably because of the fact that i drowned myself with coffee just to keep me awake. i feel that my heart is already palpitating. you see the picture of my desk below, you would understand why.

i feel as if my arms would start to curl and that i would walk around with my arms forming an M on my head. i really don’t have much of a choice as mcdonalds is the only fastfood/restaurant open at this time of night here in dalian.

i lack sleep. was trying to tidy up my room (after office hours) until i went off to la-la land at 6am. i still need to move my stuffs when i get home. i’d be vacating my room as someone needs to move in. hence the general cleaning. need to go to the doctor in the morning, go to my accupuncture session, shop for a couple of pairs of jeans and then go to the office in the evening… practically can’t do much anymore. just look at how chaotic my desk is… considering that we have a clean desk policy at the office *lol*

i am tired, palpitating, and sleepy. and yet i am still in the office, writing this blog, participating in my thursday conference call, and doing my administrative tasks. boooring. that’s the correct word.