gracie’s blog

feeling senti ako ngayon. been trying to sleep for hours but sleep seems to run away and my mind keeps on going after it…

the fog, the darkness, painfully creeps away.
i lie cold on the dark, dank earth
half unconscious, half awake, swimming in limbo.
as my limbs regained their consciousness,
renewed and suprised, i move.
slowly, wearily, tearfully,
i am alive.
rain fell like droplets of crystals
pounding hard and blinding my eyes,
washing away the sins, the filth, the pain.
barely breathing i trudged along, alone.
a path leading to nowhere.
knees raw from each fall pained each step.
yet i roamed,
to where fate would lead,
until light was seen and freedom was washed over.
a reward at the end of the mist.
a cruel road in which salvation awaits.

i have been trying to post something (of significance) or postable (if there is such a word, hehe). there are and still are so many topics in my head but thoughts are racing and my fingers can type only as fast as a snail. in fairness naman, di ako single finger typing like my ati (peace tayo ati! bati pa rin kayo inday kahit nasa alemanya ka na). my thoughts race through my head and vanish as soon as a new thought comes in. memory gap kaya? sundin ko kaya ulit ang payo ng ati ko? bumili na kaya ako ng sustagen premium? hahaha! i’m not that old naman di ba mga prends ko? (sumagot kayo ng maayos or else wala na kayong technical support!) manakot ba naman.

kainis kase ang night shift. i’ve already established a pattern of sleeping, exercising after work tas guluhin ba naman ako ng PM ko the following day para sabihing, “you’re schedule has changed. you’re supposed to be on your holiday today”. syempre nagulantang ako! pero dapat poise pa rin. sabi ko na lang i have a meeting today and i need to do admin tasks pa. lusot! wahaha! pero p@ksyet talaga! sayang! pwede pa sana akong matulog nun! hehe.

so isip ko na lang, i’ll write a poem. got my pen and scratchpad, had some ideas, but i guess the i couldn’t exactly say the things i want to say and with the right words. then biglang nagkabisita ako. syempre takbo ako para magsuot ng mas disenteng damit.  bitin talaga lahat ng gusto kong gawin.

then i planned on going to the gym. i always couldn’t make it for some other reason *waah!* kainis talaga. bat laging bitin?

oo wala pa rin akong maisip. walang maisip na worth it na isulat sa blog ko, hahaha!